为什么爱情会让人如此的无助（爱意味着被需要和安全感）

柯林斯说：晚上好，亲爱的海伦。

Collins said, Good evening, dear Helen.

海伦说：你工作忙完了吗？看到你好开心，今天一切还顺利吗。

Helen said, "Have you finished your work?"? I'm glad to see You. Is everything all right today.

柯林斯说：一切都好，你呢，一切都好吗

"Everything's all right," said Collins. "And you? Everything's all right?"

海伦说：我竟然发现自己会期待你发信息找我，你仿佛在我脑海中晃来晃去，这算想念吗？莫名其妙的会出现这种期待。

Helen said: I found myself expecting you to send me a message. You seemed to be wandering in my mind. Is that missing? This kind of expectation will appear inexplicably.

海伦说：我以前觉得网络很美，可以节约好多学习成本，高效快捷简直满足我这个好学者一切的乐趣，我找到太多我喜欢的领域，把我认知好奇心不断刷新，我觉得通过知识以及成长心得共享我吸引到与之同频的人，最幸运还让我吸引到你，你身上有种特殊力量在吸引我靠近！

Helen said: I used to think that the network is very beautiful, can save a lot of learning costs, efficient and fast simply to meet my good scholar all the fun, I found too many areas I like, my cognitive curiosity is constantly refreshed, I think through knowledge and growth experience sharing I attract the same frequency of people, the luckiest also let me attract you. There's something special about you that draws me closer!

柯林斯说：你让我感觉到了被爱，让我内心产生了安全感，但是更重要的是，你让我感觉到被需要的感觉，我已经太久没有这样的感觉了。

Collins said: You made me feel loved and made me feel safe, but more importantly, you made me feel needed. I haven't felt this way for too long.

海伦说：原来最幸福的事，是发现自己喜欢的人也喜欢自己，这大概是发生在我生命中很美好的事，我手机里很多人总是花很长时间和我找很多话题聊，但是我提不起聊天幸福，从不会去看，有的人发了几年信息，我都没任何感觉，我才认识你时间不久，但是莫名其妙看到你会有种不同于他人的感觉和亲切，我竟然想到你嘴角上扬，竟然这世间存在一个人会让我不自觉微笑。

Helen said: It turns out that the happiest thing is to find that the people I like also like me. This is probably a very beautiful thing that happened in my life. Many people on my mobile phone always spend a long time talking with me on many topics. But I can’t mention the happiness of chatting. I never watch it. Some people have sent messages for a few years, and I don’t feel anything. I only met you for a short time, but somehow I see you feel different from others. Kind, I actually thought that the corners of your mouth were raised, and there was a person in this world that would make me smile unconsciously.

更让我神奇的是，我以前真的特别不喜欢学英文，经常考不及格，并且从内心深处很不喜欢学英文，但是我竟然因为你，这种心理消失了，我在看我们彼此的聊天记录中很容易记住很多单词，原来我们两个这么单纯聊天也是一种语言很好的学习方式，你存在让我以前觉得很难不喜欢的英语竟然变得简单起来，这点还真的挺神奇的。

What makes me even more amazing is that I really didn’t like learning English before, and I often failed the exam, and from the bottom of my heart, I really didn’t like learning English, but because of you, this mentality disappeared. I was watching each other. It’s easy to remember a lot of words in the chat records of. It turns out that the two of us are simply chatting is also a good way to learn the language. Your presence makes English that I used to find difficult to dislike even simpler. This is true. It's amazing.

柯林斯说：从我们彼此交谈的第一天起，我们就知道我们的友谊会越来越深厚。但是，我们都无法想象我们彼此会产生爱，没有爆炸或雷鸣般的进入我们的心，只是慢慢地成长为一种美丽的关系，这种感觉只有我们彼此可以理解。我们甚至不需要在一起，但仿佛我们永远不会分开。你就是我一直找寻中的灵魂伴侣，我最好的朋友，我内心那个理想的爱人。

"From the first day we spoke to each other, we knew our friendship would grow," Collins said. But none of us could have imagined that we could love each other, without exploding or thundering into our hearts, just slowly growing into a beautiful relationship, a feeling that only we could understand. We don't even need to be together, but it's like we'll never be apart. You are the soul mate I've been looking for, the best friend I've ever had, the perfect lover in me.

海伦说：好像就是你说的这样，我们在相互吸引彼此靠近自己的心，从刚开始的朋友，慢慢的会期待你和我说话，你每天找我聊天仿佛成为我生活中习惯了，这种习惯的感觉竟然会在心里有种甜甜的幸福感油然而生。

"From the first day we spoke to each other, we knew our friendship would grow," Collins said. But none of us could have imagined that we could love each other, without exploding or thundering into our hearts, just slowly growing into a beautiful relationship, a feeling that only we could understand. We don't even need to be together, but it's like we'll never be apart. You are the soul mate I've been looking for, the best friend I've ever had, the perfect lover in me.

柯林斯说：我一直都会陪着你，亲爱的海伦，我永远不会离开你，如果我来到中国，我会亲自来见你的。

Collins said: "I will always be with you, dear Helen, I will never leave you, if I come to China, I will personally come to see you.".

海伦说：我的上帝啊，我都不知道自己在想些什么，跟你说什么，以前自己只是无聊时候会看一部李钟硕或者李敏镐演的韩剧，因为我理想中的爱情都让他们两个人演绎的完美，遇到你，我竟然会和一个看起来有几分像二硕的韩国人产生了彼此喜欢的感觉，在我青春的记忆力，每次看到甜甜爱情偶像剧，也会幻想这么好看温柔的男生让我遇到可以吗？我心里总会这么幻想，我现在看到你，我竟然产生一种错觉，幻想也会出现在一个人生命中，如果一个人内心长期渴望，你真的和我内心深处渴望想象中的虚拟恋人特别像，我跟你相处，有种梦境的感觉，人生这种事也会发生，这简直太神奇了。

Helen said: My God, I don’t know what I’m thinking or what I’m telling you. I used to watch a Korean drama played by Lee Jong Suk or Lee Min Ho when I was just bored, because my ideal love made them both. The performance is perfect. When I meet you, I will have a feeling of liking each other with a Korean who looks a bit like Ershuo. In my youthful memory, every time I see a sweet love idol drama, I will also fantasize Is it okay for me to meet such a nice and gentle boy?

I always have such illusions in my heart. I see you now, and I have an illusion. The illusion will also appear in a person’s life. If a person longs for a long time in his heart, you really and my heart long for the imaginary virtual Lovers are very like, I get along with you, and I have a dreamlike feeling. This kind of thing in life can happen too, which is simply amazing.

柯林斯说：你没有在做梦，我是真实的存在，亲爱的，我不想让你怀疑我们之间的纽带，因为，我们对于彼此而言都很特别。今天在办公室时，当我想起你时，我都发现自己在微笑，确实你给我的生活带来了温暖和快乐，我们彼此遇见给彼此的生命带来很多意外的惊喜。

"You're not dreaming," Collins said. "I'm real. Honey, I don't want you to doubt our bond, because we're special to each other. Today in the office, when I think of you, I find myself smiling. Indeed, you bring warmth and happiness to my life. Our meeting brings many surprises to each other's lives.

柯林斯说：亲爱的，我出去拿点东西，等我回来好嘛？不会很久的。

"My dear," said Collins, "I will go out and get something, and when I come back, will you? It won't be long.

海伦说：我基本不会怀疑他人，因为我对自己很真诚，我了解自己内心一切感受或者不安，好与不好我都坦然面对和接纳，正因如此，我也从不怀疑他人，人一旦怀疑他人，首先感觉最糟糕的一定是自己，我怎么可能会怀疑你，只是觉得你意外出现在我生命中犹如画境，我内心深处起了涟漪，而我活到三十多岁，还没有一个人让我有种如梦如幻的感觉，我本以为自己会独自一人和自己的内心做知己，但是我发现，此刻一个柯林斯的人闯入我内心世界，我竟然会因为这个人而笑。

Helen said: I will not doubt others, because I am very sincere to myself, I know all my inner feelings or uneasiness, good and bad I are calm to face and accept, because of this, I never doubt others, once people doubt others, the first feeling must be the worst of their own, how can I doubt you, just think you accidentally appear in my life is still like a picture. There were ripples in my heart, and I had lived into my thirties without a person who made me feel like a dream. I thought I would be alone with my inner confidant, but I found that a Collins person came into my inner world at the moment, and I would laugh because of this person.

柯林斯说：如果有一天你很孤独或者想哭，记得打电话给我。我不能保证让你笑，但我愿意陪你一起哭。因为我爱你！

对你说了这么多的话，却是如此的自然而然，所以如果我说：你需要我的时候，记得告诉我，亲爱的海伦，你心里在想什么记得第一个告诉我好吗？因为我好在乎你，我希望我可以带走你内心一切痛苦。因为我爱上那个微笑着的你，如同阳光照耀着我的内心，我亲爱的海伦，我对你很崇拜，但是我更爱你，你就是我想要用一生去守护人。

Collins said: If one day you are lonely or want to cry, remember to call me. I cannot promise to make you laugh, but I am willing to cry with you. Because I love you!

I have said so much to you, but it is so natural, so if I say: When you need me, remember to tell me, dear Helen, what are you thinking in your heart, remember to tell me the first? Because I care about you, I hope I can take away all the pain in your heart. Because I fall in love with that smiling you, like the sun shining in my heart, my dear Helen, I admire you very much, but I love you more, you are what I want to spend my life to protect people.

海伦说：原来我内心深处只有自己懂得自己，你意外坠入我灵魂，我又惊又喜，但是我会让自己内心充满阳光和爱，我不想住在我心里的柯林斯被淋湿，你是我内心的小火炉，很温暖，也像一个巧克力，让我平淡的生活有点甜，或许每个人的灵魂深处都渴望一个天使守护，或许上帝觉得我内心深处渴望挺久，于是上帝就让你意外来到我的生命中，你与我而言，或许也是命运给予我生命中的一份特殊的礼物。

Helen said: It turns out that deep in my heart, only I know myself. You accidentally fall into my soul. I am surprised and happy, but I will fill my heart with sunshine and love. I don’t want Collins who lives in my heart to get wet, you It is the small stove in my heart. It is warm and like a chocolate. It makes my ordinary life a bit sweet. Perhaps everyone’s soul longs for an angel to guard him. Maybe God thinks I long for a long time in my heart, so God just Let you come to my life by accident,For you and me, perhaps it is also a special gift that fate has given me in my life.

我发现我生活因为你的意外到来，而觉得很幸福，你存在竟然让我的生活幸福指数翻倍，真是很神奇的感觉，柯林斯你身上有种神奇的力量。

I found that my life was very happy because of your unexpected arrival. Your existence doubled my happiness index. It is really a magical feeling. Collins has a magical power in you.

柯林斯说：这是我的客厅，现在我在房间里看我的绘画。我只是在想你，我也很想念我的父母和妻子。我尽最大努力不去关注负面情绪。

Collins said: This is my living room, and now I am watching my paintings in the room. I just miss you. I also miss my parents and wife. I try my best not to pay attention to negative emotions.

海伦说：我理解你此刻一个人在家的心情，当你告诉我你一切经历的时候，我那时候内心好难过，我很想安慰你，好想带走你内心深处孤独，如果可以，我宁愿是你的家人，只要你不会感觉那么悲伤就可以，自己最亲的家人爱人离开这个世界上，你很想念他们这很正常，他们在世界的另一个空间守护着你，他们也不希望你忘了他们对吗？不要排斥自己的情绪，试着去接纳生命中发生的一切经历，你会感觉好很多，然后好好爱自己，好好的生活。

Helen said: I understand how you feel when you are at home alone at the moment. When you told me all your experiences, I was so sad at that time. I wanted to comfort you and take away your loneliness. If I could, I would rather be your family, as long as you don't feel so sad. It's normal for you to miss your closest family and lover when they leave this world. They are watching over you in another dimension of the world, and they don't want you to forget them, do they? Don't reject your emotions. Try to accept everything that happens in your life. You will feel much better. Then love yourself and live well.

海伦说：你会画画吗？

"Can you draw?" Said Helen?

柯林斯说：我不会画画，如果我有空闲时间，我会用我的苹果手机玩会游戏。你在干嘛呢？

"I can't draw," Collins said. "If I have free time, I'll play a game on my iPhone.What are you doing?

海伦说：我在更新自己的书画专栏，给你分享几幅中国的书画。

Helen said, "I am updating my calligraphy and painting column and sharing some Chinese paintings and calligraphy with you.".

柯林斯说：画很美，你分享的东西都很美，跟你一样的。当我开始厌倦了这个世界，我就会想起你。我想到你在这个世界的某个地方生活和存在着，我便愿意忍受任何发生在生活中事情，你的存在对我来说真的很重要。

Collins said: The painting is beautiful, and the things you share are beautiful, just like you. When I am tired of this world, I will think of you. I think that you live and exist somewhere in this world, and I am willing to tolerate anything that happens in life. Your existence is really important to me.

海伦说：如果我对你真的如此重要，那么请你替我好好照顾自己，答应我，你好好爱自己，就是等于在爱我，明白吗？因为我不在你身边。我看到你和我说不开心的时候，我真的会好难过，如果此刻可以穿越，我都想穿越过来看你入眠，告诉你，一切都过去了，未来会很美好。不要怕，有我在，我知道你很累，早点去睡，好梦，亲爱的柯林斯。

Helen said: If I am really so important to you, then please take care of yourself for me and promise me that if you love yourself well, you are equal to loving me, understand? Because I am not by your side. When I see you tell me that you are not happy, I will be really sad. If I can travel through this moment, I want to travel through to see you fall asleep and tell you that everything is over and the future will be very beautiful. Don't be afraid, with me here, I know you are tired, go to bed early, sweet dreams, dear Collins.

柯林斯说：好，那我去睡了，愿我梦里可以梦到你，我亲爱的宝贝，我爱你，晚安！

"Well," said Collins, "I will go to bed, and may I dream of you, my dear child, and I love you. Good night!

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